..where i am now..

of course i would love to be on the computer posting everyday but it is nearly impossible for me. 


this warm weather has once again taken me outside to beautify my yard and bbq several times a week :)


i have enjoyed the sun more frequently lately allowing me to do some projects outside the house that have been a priority for a while. pictures to come soon...


so i think i could boil my life down into this right now. not much job stress but plenty of work. 


if i am not working at either of my jobs i am working at home on some project. it seems like though my schedule has been jammed full and very few days off work. this week has been a little nicer with some time to breath in between work. i have got to enjoy landscaping around the front of the house some. work on my garage. paint some chairs in the back and especially enjoy barbecuing several times a week.


at night i have actually had some time to sit back with susie and enjoy a few shows and a couple good movies. i really enjoyed a suspense.thriller.drama.romance the other night called "the next three days" with russell crowe and liam neesen 


all in all i think that god has been giving me lots of energy to work and lots of energy to think. 


i am feeling good about life but am continually missing youth. there is a bittersweet feeling i get each week with where we are right now. 


i am at the point now where i am over the stress of the previous church and now feel like i am healing and learning more about who i am and really listening for God and where he wants to use us. 


lets put it this way. i am praying every minute that God uses me to His fullest and not what will only please me but Him to the fullest!


with that i am putting plenty of fillers back out there to see what is next and allowing God to work through me in whatever situation but looking for where He may be calling us next to go. 


at this point i have not felt like he has a set place for us and that is frustrating times because it is almost like i am in a holding tank trying to get comfortable but there is not enough room and i feel out of place. so it is frustrating because i want to settle down but i think God is preparing a way for us as we speak. 


it is comforting to know that susie is open to pretty much wherever God can use us most.


so ...where i am now... is at a point of rest. re cooperation. searching. listening. obeying. loving. nurturing. forgiving. and open


i know that i can trust God to lead us to a place of comfort. peace. fruitful. eventful. worship. content.

here is a verse that i love and helps me continue to remember God is in control and takes care of me every day and every way. 

..greener grass syndrome..

i have enjoyed the different seasons of life that God has given me. i know that he has a plan for susie and i and i am excited to continue to follow His plan. 


over memorial day weekend we went to charlotte to spend time with friends and family. it was so much fun relaxing, grilling out, and go on motorcycle rides. 


we also went to elevation church in charlotte. this church is the 4th fastest church growing in america. it is unreal within 5 years it has 4 campuses with packed houses. i really enjoyed the series they were finishing up. it was called "mr. and mrs. betterhalf." 


during this sermon series focused on how to win a woman. how to keep a man. 


the big idea that i grabbed from the message which was very moving was 


"if the grass is greener over there, then try watering your own lawn!"


this grabbed me and has stuck with me since. 


i have been thinking about this all week through many things. mostly my life not my marriage. 
at this point in my life i have not questioned or struggled with green grass syndrome in my marriage and i hope i never do!


i have thought about this where we are now in our life. 


how can i water my grass 


...to have a beneficial future for my family 


...effective and God-centered ministry 


...faithful to my wife


...loving to my family




here are some verses i feel that comfort me and continually lift me up and remind me to lift myself up for another day of 


..marriage


..work


..ministry


..friendship


..and one day being a father 


Galatians 6:9 let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.


somedays it is tough to get up and give it your best but with God's reminder in the back of your mind we can do all things and at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we keep watering our own grass


i love the verse  ecclesiastes 4:12 where i am reminded

 though one may be overpowered, 

   two can defend themselves. 

A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.

this can mean your spouse or even best friend that will continually lift you up and work as a team through the thick and thin

i know that where we are at right now is not exactly where we want to be as far as jobs and house but we put our faith in God he will continually bless us. 

many times i look at other peoples grass literally and figuratively and think that i wish i had their life, but i am reminded God establishes our steps. (proverbs 16:9)

i may continually want certain things for our lives but i believe the Lord does not give us too much at once. 

our grass may not be as green as we want it to be but i do know for sure

 

..we are blessed 

so my prayer tonight is that my wife and i will faithfully follow the Lord's steps that he has laid for us. 

i do not want to catch the greener grass syndrome and wish my life away. 

i shall continue to water my own grass because i do not want to be looking like this cow